OCTOBER 2018 FAILURE TO BLESSINGS

First week of October i got the result of my Civil Service Exams.. and yes, i can't make it to pass. i got the score of ave 62.11 if i'm not mistaken the exact scores. but i thank God that atleast i got 70 percent in Clerical parts which i am pretty sure that i knew some of the questions since i took and experience that long long time ago..haha. but i knew that it also a failed score because the total to make it pass is 80.
but the Blessing in desguise that i may say is during that weekdays i met a guy, who changed my way of life. of coarse i never replaced the moment when i met and received the Lord of my Life the Saviour of my soul, my personal Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. but this guy who is a miles distant apart may say becomes a part of my current life. soon i will details the full story behind this. but all in all i always Give back all the Glory to our Lord Jesus, God almighty who took His Grace upon me.

CSE PPT FIRST TIME EXPERIENCE

It's almost been a decade when i took up CSE CAT the term that time in computer test. That was my first time too and knew the result the same day after done my exams. Sad to say, i didn't qualified for the covered passing rate. I forgot the exact percent I had but I remember the passing rate then was 75% and my grade is too close to passing rate. I knew and accepted that It's not the right time for me. Aside from lack of review time I am not sure for all my answered it's just a guess most of them. Actually I had a reviewer booklet which i was bought from NBS that time but I am pretty sure it's not enough and to tell you honestly i don't remember if there was items included on the examination paper.
That is why This year, for my second time around doing my Pen and Paper Test which i may called the second attempt in CSE I had no idea where do i take an accurate reviewer and since online reviewer is the easiest source and since i have no enough money or budget to get to any reviewer center, I tried once again. And only I had is to entrust all my knowledge and abilities to God my Savior and the reviewer which i had seen tru online, via google. A day before exam i tried to search via YT and for the last minute, i realized that, i regret not search that channel early to get some tips for CSE.
Anyway, thanks be to God whatever comes what may to the result after two months from now I will know if I am passing or not. I have to get ready and fix my mind that it is God's will whatever the result. If passed, it is only By His Grace and not my own effort, because i have no enough reviewed and due to forgetfullness easily the reason why i cannot review daybyday.. just read and familiarized because i know i may forgot and not sure if that was comes on the examination paper. and i almost right because hindi naman talaga lumabas sa exam mostly mga nareview particular sa General informations. and sa Math naman hindi ko talaga napokus ang attention ko bagamat nareview ko naman pero hindi rin naman iyon ang lumabas eh..
Kapag dumating na ang result doon siguro mas machachallenge akong lalo na ishare ang mga experiences ko na hindi lahat ng pangyayari sa buhay ko ay BIGO AKO..or I AM FAILED. There are so many circumstances in my life that the result is not what I am expected to be but I know that God have a purpose in everything, FAILURE MAN ito sa paningin ko at ng ibang tao. pero darating ang panahon makikita ko rin ang reason why. IIyak ako siyempre kung hindi ako makakapasa.. pero alam ko may fault din ako. kase lack of review naman talaga ako for almost two months na nagpareg ako. kulang ang panahon ko nailaan dito. Subalit kung makakapasa ako, mas higit akong IIYAK marahil dahil Siya ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakapasa.

I will post here soon the result.. see you again and thanks for your support thru prayers. Updates ko lang guys tagal bago ko napost anong petsa na 2023 hehe.. hindi rin ako nakapasa sa second attempt ko sa CSE pencil and paper test naman. anyway its not God's will talaga na makapasok me sa government again as an employee pang ojt lang talaga ang peg ko atleast I had experience to work once in a Gov't agency at age 20. Now 47 na ako turning 48 this year..bilis ng panahon. Miracles happens as always upholding.

EMMA "THE STORY OF MY LIFE"

EMMA is the classic novel written by Jane Austen. Actually i never read the full content of that novel. but i love the title of her masterpiece. Why? it involves me, my name, or nickname rather. so readers wait for my story and is there any related to that novel? Perhaps not but to the author who gave me challenge to keep on writing because my name is not just given to me for nothing, there is a purpose. and that is ... The Story of My Life begins...  SOON
to be cont'd

ILAN PA BANG FAILURE?

Kung sa failure at failure ang pag-uusapan hindi na yata mabilang ang katagang ito na aking naranasan sa buong buhay ko.
Subalit hindi ko narin naman maisa-isa ang mga iyon. nalimutan ko na yata ung ilan kung kailan naganap. mya mga kabiguan na bunga ng aking maling pagpapasya, at iyon nga iba ay hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang purpose ng Lord kung paano at bakit kailangang mangyari iyon.
Ano naman sa akin kung ito ay plano at kapangyarihan ng Diyos kung bakit ito dapat mangyari. Sa pang-taong kaisipan at maikling pang-unawa ay kung minsan ay nagtatanong kung ilan pa bang kabiguan o failure ang dapat kong maranasan upang makita ko ung kaganapan ng katuparan ng Kanyang kasagutan.
Failure is the backdoor of success...but when is the success happens if it is always failure it shown?  God forgave me for the wrong thinking i had.. i knew that His thoughts is not my thought and His ways is not my way.
Therefore, I will be back on Him again, to Trust His what He can do with my failure. He deserved to be worship despite for that. Because He is Omniscient, Omnipresent, Omnipotent God, no questions about it.

i missed someone

Why all of a sudden i am missing that person? i remember that person but if ever we cross our path again, i am not sure what feeling i may feel..

don't know when but if it is in heaven...i will say, congrats brethren we both here because of God's grace and not by own effort. because we were both imperfect committed mistakes in different shortcoming in our own.

Thanks be to God who saved us.